Tag: mind
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Catch the Demons while you still can…
I might need to relocate sooner than later. Not to run from or change my situation. Mainly to reset or recharge in some way. Somewhere new where the weight of relationships and finance loosen up a little. But then the words of my guide come into play. “You can do that in another city or…
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Late Night Conversations
It’s impossible for me to sleep tonight. I just took my first STEM course exam in hopes of setting myself up to one day enter a PhD program in observational Astronomy. Before I get to that you must know. . . I wasn’t always interested in science. But a couple of years back, during what…
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Goodbye Fear, Hello Life
I’m finding out love REALLY IS the answer to all hurtles. I’m becoming who I am and not catering to others wants or needs – truly becoming it and not just expressing it. 7 months later, I’m barely feeling healed from total BURN OUT. And I see this is the case for so many people.…
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Why are we here? Ask Neutrinos
My current obsession: answering the question, why were we created? The current answer: to experience human life. Done. When it’s felt deeply, it’s understood, and it creates internal gratitude like no other. Like the kind that brings tears of happiness and joy. It’s just for a moment. But it helps you continue to move forward…
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Let’s Analyze – PTSD Pre and Post Ketamine
I had my first trigger yesterday since I did Ketamine. I’m inclined to sort through the symptoms pre and post. What better way than to write it out. I’m aware we mostly keep our journals to ourselves. Trust me, I have a personal one. But there’s power in sharing, when you’ve lived with secrets for…
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Mindless or Mindful
I wake up with nowhere to go. Nothing of significance to do. My hand reaches for a phone that is now an apparatus in flesh. It slows down my neurons habitually with garbage. Making it harder and harder to think. And I allow it. Like a junkie looking forward to its next dose and wondering…
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How do you Heal?
Exactly 6 months ago today my life took a turn for the worse after a gym session that shut my body down with no return. I kept putting blame on the training. On working too hard and not smart. Maybe I just didn’t know how to be an athlete. Or maybe my body wasn’t cut…