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Embrace the Chaos

May 19, 2022

Numb-free since August 2021 It hasn’t been pretty. There’s a lot of excess shedding going on and vulnerability. I’d call this next Chapter of my life “How to be Human Again”. Getting constant feelings regularly and always changing with no … Read on . . .Embrace the Chaos

Goodbye Fear, Hello Life

March 23, 2022

I’m finding out love REALLY IS the answer to all hurtles. I’m becoming who I am and not catering to others wants or needs – truly becoming it and not just expressing it. 7 months later, I’m barely feeling healed … Read on . . .Goodbye Fear, Hello Life

Conventional Therapy is Not For Everyone

February 2, 2022February 10, 2022

So much abuse, so little conversation. I want to say this about surviving sexual abuse because I’ve noticed through my own experience of learning how to heal, that it’s easy to give up, shut down and isolate during the lows … Read on . . .Conventional Therapy is Not For Everyone

Momentary Lapse

November 18, 2021February 10, 2022

The mind shift returns with vengeance momentarily. There’s still a lot of scars and pain. I say PTSD free because the thick helmet is gone, and my chest pain is gone. More importantly, the FEAR has kicked rocks far from … Read on . . .Momentary Lapse

Why are we here? Ask Neutrinos

November 12, 2021February 10, 2022

My current obsession: answering the question, why were we created? The current answer: to experience human life. Done. When it’s felt deeply, it’s understood, and it creates internal gratitude like no other. Like the kind that brings tears of happiness … Read on . . .Why are we here? Ask Neutrinos

Let’s Analyze – PTSD Pre and Post Ketamine

November 2, 2021February 10, 2022

I had my first trigger yesterday since I did Ketamine. I’m inclined to sort through the symptoms pre and post. What better way than to write it out. I’m aware we mostly keep our journals to ourselves. Trust me, I … Read on . . .Let’s Analyze – PTSD Pre and Post Ketamine

Amateur Athlete and Periods

October 6, 2021February 10, 2022

Let’s talk about my ignorance in women’s health. I’ve been trying to go back to my regular MMA training routine and have been struck with the reality that I am putting my health at risk once again. I’m feeling exhausted … Read on . . .Amateur Athlete and Periods