Tag: writer
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Momentary Lapse
The mind shift returns with vengeance momentarily. There’s still a lot of scars and pain. I say PTSD free because the thick helmet is gone, and my chest pain is gone. More importantly, the FEAR has kicked rocks far from my immediate body. But that of the mind is a trick yet to be understood.…
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Why are we here? Ask Neutrinos
My current obsession: answering the question, why were we created? The current answer: to experience human life. Done. When it’s felt deeply, it’s understood, and it creates internal gratitude like no other. Like the kind that brings tears of happiness and joy. It’s just for a moment. But it helps you continue to move forward…
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Let’s Analyze – PTSD Pre and Post Ketamine
I had my first trigger yesterday since I did Ketamine. I’m inclined to sort through the symptoms pre and post. What better way than to write it out. I’m aware we mostly keep our journals to ourselves. Trust me, I have a personal one. But there’s power in sharing, when you’ve lived with secrets for…
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Amateur Athlete and Periods
Let’s talk about my ignorance in women’s health. I’ve been trying to go back to my regular MMA training routine and have been struck with the reality that I am putting my health at risk once again. I’m feeling exhausted in between sessions. I feel weak and irritated for the inability to keep up like…
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Creative Self and Acceptance
I’ve been watching a lot of Dr. Jordan Peterson’s talks lately. Specifically on the psychology of creativity and psychedelics in clinical settings. My Ketamine experience has had a drastic impact on what it means for me to be human. It has also developed a curiosity into the realm of abstract materials and its realism. Thus,…
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6/8
The psychedelic “experience” The one that changed my thoughts and self forever. It began with a sudden elevation and worldly exit just like the others. I entered the new dimension with ease and presence. I saw blocks of life forming in magnificence colors and shapes not recognizable by eyesight (It fills you with calm and…
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Ketamine
I’m not sure what I’m feeling All I notice is the rush of angst running through my veins again. It’s 11PM and there’s a sense of confusion – You see I’ve been in this ketamine treatment plan for about a month now. And I must say. The experience is vibrant. Out of this world and…